dopey

yesterday, i did not have the ability to carry on a normal conversation. i will give you two examples.

this is elizabeth and i cleaning rooms. i am mumbling the entire conversation.

r - elizabeth can you kill this bug
e - sure.
r - at least its not a roach.
e - yeah i hate those.
r - yeah. they are always everywhere at my house in georgia. they always crawled up through the drain in the bathroom.
e - that's not good.
r - and i couldn't just crush them and throw them out. they're so gross. i always took a bottle of windex or scrubbing bubbles and cleaned them to death. then i'd try to wash them down the drain but they wouldn't go they'd get stuck. so i poured draino on them and waited ten minutes.

silence.

e - well it's a good thing you didn't crush them. those things carry tons of eggs and when you kill them like that they disperse the eggs and have tons of baby roaches.
r- that's gross. isn't there another bug that does that?
e - i think it's just roaches.
r - oh.


this is jesse trying to talk to me about my car situation -

j - ...so you'd have to take out a car loan to pay for it.
r - i can't do that. i just wanna make payments.
j - you can't afford to make payments right now.
r - but i can do it. i'll figure it out.
j- ruth you can't make them you can't afford it.
r - but i want to. i need a car.(i think everything he was saying was going over my head at this point)
j - ruth you should just wait i'll let you use my car and we'll figure everything out.
silence.
j- do you understand?
r-ummmm....i think so. i guess i'll talk to mom and dad about it.
j- but you understand what i'm saying?
r-ummmm....yeah i think so.

yeah. that's medicine for you. ok at least i really really really really really really hope that it's because of my medicine. it says that these are side effects. so i'm going to go with that for now.


love,

ruthy